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when i feel bad i hardly can do anything and you normally would found me lying in bed doing nothing. rolling, nestling in bed do makes me wanna cry but this tears of mine kinda shy and liat nak keluar. so i do not cry. hooouu what should i do what am i going to do how how.

usually i'd go find the person, hug her and say that word, you know. i would hug her till im sure that the shy and liat tears of mine will not go pouring out. then only i pulled back and the blabla bla begin.

its weird and i dont know what or why but i feel bad now.